Going off...

You know, it's really hard when you go out of town to stay on track with eating. I went to a women's conference this weekend (which was great!!). I didn't have my regular food. There were lots of snacks. I was out of my regular routine. So it was difficult to resist some of that stuff. But after I got home last night, I sat down at the computer and started logging my points (weight watchers). I didn't do nearly as bad as I had thought. I was certainly thankful for that. Tomorrow is weigh day. I have no idea what to expect. Up, down or the same...whatever. Whatever will be, will be. But looking back over the weekend and being apprehensive about tomorrow's weigh in, I realize that I truly am focused on the wrong thing. I am obsessed with my weight and my food. But it really is about obedience to God and it really is about calling out to Him to help me not eat when I am not hungry. This afternoon when I was feeling weak (being tempted to eat when I wasn't hungry at all), I prayed instead of eating. You know, the temptation passed and I didn't eat. Praise the Lord! It is hard not to look at the whole picture and think I will never be able to keep this up. But I had victory with that one choice. I need to only look at my next choice and know that I can have victory each time. Somehow that makes things not seem so overwhelming.

This week, God showed me in His Word some Scriptures that have to do with food. Isn't it amazing that in His Word, we can find help for any (ANY) problem that we have. The verse for this week is Deut. 8:10 - "When you have eaten your fill, be sure to praise the Lord, your God". I have eaten my fill and I praise God for victory in my choices.

Re-evaluation

There comes a time in every "dieter's" journey that a special occasion comes around and you try to do good with your choices but inevitably don't. If this has happened to you and if you are like me, you feel guilty and filled with regret. This happened to me on Friday and it is now Sunday and I still feel like I haven't been able to get back on track. I feel so guilty and condemned!! So full of hopelessness. Will I ever conquer this? God gently reminded me of Romans 8:1 - There is, therefore, now no condemnation to those who are in Christ Jesus. Isn't He sweet? He is so loving and kind. All that hopelessness has been replaced with hope...hope in Jesus. I know that this task is not impossible with Jesus. I am learning to crave God instead of food. I am learning to go to Him instead of going to food when I am stressed, lonely, sad, happy. It is a hard habit to break. But I know my loving Heavenly Father is right there waiting for me to come running!

Changing from the Inside Out

I am on a journey. A journey of change. A journey of changing from the inside out. It is a weight loss journey. It is more than a weight loss journey. I want to shed the extra weight I have put on over the years. It is more than pounds. The extra weight is hard physically but it is also hard spiritually. I want to shed the burden and bondage of being addicted to food. Of going to food instead of going to God. Wanting food to give me comfort and peace when I know that only God can give that to me. I have been on this journey my whole life. I want my life to begin again....today.